It’s all white and blue, as far as the eye
can see. But I am not looking up. I’m seating on the white floor with my legs
folded. I have placed my palms on the back of my neck, elbows in my lap. My
neck bent and I’m staring into this white, blue nothingness.
I hear footsteps approaching. I feel His
warmth. I feel it filling the space around me. But I don’t look up. Probably I
don’t wanna look up. I’m tired. There is no life left. There is no strength.
The pain is just too much, too damn much!
I feel Him kneeling on His one knee. The
warmth increases. He keeps his one hand on my shoulder. I let out a tear from my
eye. He then speaks.
G: God
J: Julious Macqueen
G: God
J: Julious Macqueen
G: How is the 25th year of your
life, my child?
I look up to Him, wondering why does He
have to ask? Doesn’t he know what I’m going through? So I say.
J: You know it! Why do you ask?
G: I’ll know only as much as you tell me. I’m
just your fiction. I’m just your way of sharing your pain. A way to let that
flow away what you have been holding in you! The real God has already plans set
for you and those all will come into motion the day you start believing in the
power of His Love!
J: Love? Belief? Do you know what your
creation is doing down there? No one believes in Love anymore! There is such a
reckless use of that word that it will disgust You and sicken You!
He then seats down folding His legs in front of me. I look up into His eyes.
G: People do believe in Love. And they are
hoping for the same. But they aren’t working for the same. And that’s the
difference. Many give up fooling themselves into the worldly tricks like being
practical or telling themselves lies that it isn’t meant to be because they are
scared to do the right thing and what consequences might follow. But few know
the true worth. And they are ready to fight for it. And when they do fight they are at peace with themselves and with Me. Few
are strong to see that Love and Belief remain what they are meant to be, beautiful
and everlasting, while rest are not so strong. But that doesn’t make them
sinners. They are weak willed and it’s up to the likes of those who are strong
to carry on and make them see the truth. That becomes one of the purposes of
their lives.
J: It’s so hurting to do the right thing!
It’s so damn painful and one feels so alone! I have been too strong for too
long! And You are still testing me in every sphere of my life! I have been good to everyone. I have been there for those who asked of me.
G: Yes, it’s been a long journey being
mature and steady! But considering what you are capable of I think you can take
this pain and a lot more! I made you and I know what you are capable of! I know
you since before you breathed your first. Most had given up on you even before
you came but yet you fought through and you were born. So don’t think that this
journey is long and that you have been tested to your potential. And while you
were there for everyone, do remember I was there for you! While you prayed, I
listened. So have faith! You were born strong! You are still strong but you
have just lost faith because you are scared and there are, as per you,
seemingly overwhelming situations right now! But trust in Me. I’ll make things
right through you. Just have faith! Pray and work! Sitting down and crying
won’t help! Just get up and even though you have to go through shame and pain,
walk through it. Cry when you wish to but don’t stop trying. Even with tears in
your eyes always have courage in your heart! Don’t let pain overcome you! This
is the moment when you show faith and strength. This is the moment to show the
meaning of what’s beautiful, what’s love and belief and what is truly the
strength of human heart. People have overcome far greater obstacles because
they kept working towards solving them. So don’t give up! Work for what you
believe in! And believe Me, I’m with you. And you will know it. So what are you
gonna do Julious Macqueen?
J: I’m gonna work. I’m gonna work my heart
out. I’m gonna work for what I believe in, no matter what people say. No matter
how much they try to fool themselves and me. I’m gonna show them the light and
the truth. I’m gonna show them what’s possible because of Love. The beauty of
Love and the true happiness that it brings. I’m gonna give my all. In the
process I’m gonna break myself to be whole again because I know I can’t walk
like this. I’m gonna learn to share and ask for help. And I’m gonna Believe in
Your Love. I’ll make Love and Belief a Success!
G: Godspeed, my child!
J: Thank you God! I love you!
G: I’ve always loved you kid! Go, get working!
